Mar 8
2012
Looking at the photos taken right before my departure, remembering the excitement I was feeling, there’s nothing but thankfulness I feel. What a naive girl I was. Or shall I say, overconfident. I just strive hard not only in my studies, but also in life, in learning how to live on my own, in loosening up and be more expressive. So much discovery about myself and I’m excited about this exploration. Wish me luck! Di
Mar 2
2012
So here I am in Perth!
I must say, it is really hard to adapt to a new lifestyle and I feel ashamed saying this at a tender age of 24. Really embarrassed to say that I’ve never travelled out of Singapore alone, let alone living overseas. As much as I hate to admit, I’m pretty reliant and can be a dead weight at times, I feel. But hey, before I start being too comfortable and becomes resistant to changes right?
Well, the reason for reviving the tumblr is to allow myself to stop and think about what I have experienced thus far. Sometimes I do get too tied up with work and what not that I forget to … feel the experience.
Living with people is never easy. Even with family. I have truly learnt that and it’s never really about others. It’s about how I feel, think and react to someone whom I’ve never lived with before. Whatever outcome this might lead to, it is all in my hands.
I must say I am really BLUR sometimes and when bombarded with too many new information, I tend to shut down. This is something I hope to change by the end of this journey. I’m still feeling pretty lost around here; trying to push myself to be more independent i.e. taking public buses alone, looking at maps, finding my way in school. I really want to butt kick that dependent self off me.
Huh, after slowing down and reviewing what I’ve experienced for the past 2 weeks, I believe that I can do this!
Di.
Aug 23
2011
Ok, I’m done with trying to live up to all these expectations. Yes, my salary doesn’t justify the amount of money I’ve invested on my education? But who the hell decided that justifications must be in monetary terms?
Of course I know I need a lot of money to further my studies. But wtf? I tutor on 4 weekdays and 1 whole weekend. I fucking maintained all my 7 tutees on top of my full-time job. A job that doesn’t allow me to leave the office on time. But I fucking hang on anyway!
Argh. It’s infuriating when all I do is the best that I can.
What else do you want?
di.
Aug 8
2011
Well, as usual of me, the initial excitement slowly wanes as workload piles up. I think I’m still inclining towards the psychology path rather than social service.
But the good thing about this company is they provide opportunity for their employee to take up Masters degree at a heavily subsidized rate. I have to be less impulsive. I must keep THE dream in mind.
di.
Aug 2
2011
If you had to choose between a passion that doesn’t earn you a lot of money and a job that earns you the money that meets both your needs and wants - choose BOTH! Do something you’re passionate about and sacrifice some time to earn extra income to meet your needs and wants.
Thanks Keong.
di
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